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How sad! I'm cooped up at home!!! I'm hungry too.. Dinner!!!!! Sigh. Think I better start revising for the up-coming Examinations! I'm getting so lazy to blog.. Wonder what if this stop? Any better alternative? Sigh... Feeling so emo now.. Pain, pain, pain! Depressed, depressed, depressed!! EMO, EMO, EMO!!!

crap...

i miss...

this.


this.


this.


and.. THIS....! [x

lazy.

I'm feeling lazy and stupid. Stupid? Hmmm...

Mid-semestral examinations are looming around the corner. I think it's driving me crazy as well. I still can't study for nuts!!! Stupid girl luh.
The 'fun fair' right outside my home is driving me insane with their techno music. What's more is the songs are all the same!!! WTH?! Oh, their stereo system got jammed. Kekekeke.. "I.. I.. I.. I..." Bwahahahahaha! ..... SHUT UP, YOU SCREAMING MOFOS! .... Sigh.. I wasted a day again! Least I don't have to go to school today! Yawns. Olivia!!! ASK ME OUT TOMORROW!! PLEASE?

Anyway, CCN Day was total chaos. I heard we made a profit of hmm, $2.20?! Marvellous! But I must say, all my classmates did a fabulous job! *CHEERS!!* Sorry that I didn't contribute much!! Hmmmms.. I did a few flyers only. Ha.. And screaming out to people to buy our CUP CORN! Heee.

Monday's school again... SIGH! And band... *hufffffffffffffff..* School makes me GLOOMY! BOO!!! Wokays. Got to go! (:

hit me hard on the face.

Thanks Yvonne, Kelly and Gabriel for the lovely Saturday. Thanks Blogger for making the entry I painstakingly typed disappeared. Bugger...

School was dreading, boring, dry... Fuck, whatever.. Not in a very good mood now. One, I SCREWED MY TESTS, BOTH TESTS FOR ACCOUNTINGS AND MANAGEMENT! Two, I pissed someone off. STUPID CAN.. Something's just not right.. Everyone's having a bad week too I guess.. Don't you agree? And what the hell, it's just the beginning of the week. IT'S TUESDAY! SIGH.. Now, my anger is diverting to depression. I feel like a moron... HAIYA!!! I'm frowning.. Bad, bad, BAD..

I'm really not in the mood to blog already. I feel like breaking down. -_-

rar..

I am suppose to complete my Econs assignment now, but, I'm kind of lethagic. Yawn.. Crap, I just realised I have more to do then expected. ARHS. I can't wait for band! WOOO! Crap.. I'm feeling like a recruit once again, always looking forward for band practices. Hee. Pray for me tmr! That I don't get kicked out too.. Ayes! Okay, I have to go now! My tutorial assignments are screaming out for me to complete. THRASH!

hows everything?

Hmmmm, well.. All I've got to say is that there had been tonnes of ups and downs in school. I think I get irritated/frustrated more easily.. Is that true? That never happened in the past. Is the environment that I'm adapting made me a changed person?? I never like the word change in my dictionary, especially when I realise what is happening to me. Where in the world has my personality gone to? Down the long gang? I did a personality quiz from APEL(Applied Principle for Effective Living). So there were four category of fishes, the careful GOLDFISH, the powerful SWORDFISH, the colourful GUPPY and the peaceful ANGELFISH. Guess where do I belong to?
If you'd guessed the colourful GUPPY..... You're.... WRONG! I'm stupidly a peaceful ANGELFISH. HUH?! How can that be.. ME? PEACEFUL?! ... I took that personality quiz seriously!! Whatever.. Just think that I'm a conservative, quiet and peaceful girl, alright? (so not me..)

Lixian was right, I am going to say that... We had one of our projects moving on! Okay, I'm suddenly darn excited. Wooheee. Hope the rest of the projects will turn out well. (:

I hope there is band on friday. I really really REALLY do not want to get kicked out of the band for going back early on Monday. Okay okay, I know it sounds pathetic, but I did it all for a friend! HAHA. Ya, they might think they do not need such a person with such a bad attitude in the band. I made a very bad impression on my first day of band. Oh wait, it's not the first day of band, it's an audition. AN AUDITION. What the hell?! So what now, BAND-LESS?! SAXOPHONE-LESS?! CCA-LESS!?!?! ..
It's actually their fault! X: Nahs, I thought it was an AUDITION what, just play and go, who knows it's ending at 9PM and well, it actually looks like an actual band practice!! -.-" I was in a rush to meet Olivia, and for that, I think I'm going to lose my place in band. But thank my SL for letting me go early.. (:
Anyway..... My SL is such a sweetie pie!(melts...) dx
PLEASE LET ME STAY IN TP BAND... Hummmmmmmss..... I've got too much to accomplish. RAR~ AND DON'T LIE TO ME! DON'T SAY YOU WON'T KICK ME OUT. BE FRANK! :P I'LL GET REALLY UPSET... :/

Tomorrow will begin at 12PM and all the way to 5PM. Crap. Next week is Quiz week. And 2 or 3 weeks later will be Mid-Semestral exams. Like wtf luh, I'm still trying so hard to breathe under the choking knowledge of these new subjects. If I puked it all out, there goes Jolene, not just a pathetic loser, but a BIG, FAT PATHETIC LOSER. I'm kind of stressed out 'cause my classmates are coping well with itheir studies and I'm not. God, please save me. Projects are dued in 3 or 4 weeks time if I'm not wrong.. Tutorial assignments are killers! Just rip me apart!! ARH...!
Okay, for now, I can't be that stress. It's only week 4. Chill chill... *breathes in breathes out..* And I hope to see Olivia soon. :( I hope she's well.

Alright, I think I'm running out of patience to type all this.
Happy 17th Birthday, NURUL <33.

Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high.
Just melt my heart and take my breath away..

look who's back.

It's raining homework and projects! HOORAY!! MY FOOT. The week was extremely warm and humid! I was trapped in the agonising heat that it made me perspire mad. I reckoned you could instanly squeeze me dry! Forget it, let's drop the weather subject. No point blaming why Heaven's not tearing..

I love tao hui(beancurd)! Do you? Mummy dear just bought it for me to eat.. Lol.. But did you know that soya bean products actually makes you fat?! I think is has a high percentage of carbohydrates. Urmmmmmm... Whatever. Correct me if I'm wrong. Oum-yum-yum-yumm..

Once a band member, always a band member. Ya, the band's so call 'sayings' and guess what?! I've joined the band! But wasn't and immediate sure-can-play-in-the-band thing. We had to go through some stupid interview before we could even be part of the band. I reckoned there are over 70 people who joined and THAT, slashes my chances into getting in and playing my desired instrument. I doubt I can even get back to my own section! Jeeeessshhh..
Dragon boat is so not for me. I forfeited the training because I lack the stamina to do all those shit. And yes, I felt so humilated. I realised I would be the downfall of the team if I ever continued.

Leader:"EH JOLENE!!! ROW FASTER!!!"
Jolene:"HUH?! Cannot already luh!! *pants pants*"
Leader:"WTF?! ROW FUCKER!!"
Jolene:"FUCK OFF LUH!*drops the oar into the water* OH FUCK!*went to pick the oar but fell into the water*"

BLAHHH!!!! Worse case scenario. Hahahaha.. Hmmm, besides stamina, my attitude, size, and having to work with fucking people, is equally fuckingly ATROCIOUS. Anyway, I'm not implying that Dragon Boaters are fuckers. Mind you! I'm referring to overbearing idiots, but I think there aren't any from there! (:

People can be so unfathomable. One moment you think she's fine, and next, she's giving you hell. I'm around such people which is why my tolerance level is increasing at such an unbelievable speed and probably getting out of hands. I feel so uncomfortable that I'm dying to break free from their clutches. How long will it take? I don't wish to hate anyone, or give a fictious front. Being in a new environment either means you rule or you suck. Just my luck, I S-U-C-K.

Anyhoos, my baby sister date me out for dinner last night. I missed him sooooo much.. ): Yea, and I got to see him! Kekeke.. We went to Ajisen for dinner. Their ramen was nice and was rather affordable. We chattered non-stop and he gave in to me as I was pestering to him to take the same bus back home with me. Then he keep saying I'm GAY and ah-sohish. What the hell!?! Chasing a bus and queuing up in a mannerly order to get up the bus doesn't make me an ah-soh! Okay? Haaa, I just love him so much.. He makes me laugh all the time.. Frankly speaking, I regretted for letting him slip away. Well, shall not wander about what I've lost. I'm just glad he still spares a thought for me, unlike someone else, whom totally left me behind, all forgotton and broke my already unstable, fragile and yet so hopeful heart. Guess what? Reality's crashing through the floor. Sigh...

Life always fuck us.

Hmmmm, what I need now is just love and concern. Just make everything seem alright.. Please?

ahmad made me to do this.

Name 20 ppl you can think of right now at the top of yr head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. Okay tag at least 5 ppl.
Ready?

Start!
#01 Olivia
#02 Kelly
#03 Sijin
#04 Amelia
#05 Shimin
#06 Ahmad
#07 Edwin
#08 Jiahao
#09 Shikin
#10 Lixian
#11 Linwei
#12 Zhongjie
#13 Aaron
#14 Minsong
#15 Yangling
#16 Nurul
#17 Maimona
#18 Kenny
#19 Su-hanna
#20 Jacqueline

Now, for the questions:

#01 How did you meet 14?
I met Minsong last year. He's one of my classmate and one of the funniest guy! I love his company lots 'cause he makes me laugh like siao luh..

#02 What would you do if you never met 1?
I wouldn't be what I am today 'cause I just can't live w/o her!!!

#03 What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
I will laugh my ass off and get a shock of my life! They aren't homosexuals luh!

#04 Did you ever like 19?
Hahahahaha. I'm straight and love the male species! Su-hanna's pretty, quiet and sweet though. [:

#05 Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
Hmm, they do not know each other.. Will it, will it?

#06 Describe 3.
Hahahaaha! Sijin's one of my best friends in high school! I love each other and we care for each other too! Very out-going and nice friend to have. We belong to he 'Gila-Girls' clique too! I missed her so!!! >< She's my coffee-break partner! Do ask me out often fo chills! :p

#07 Do you think 8 is attractive?
Hahaha, okay.. I just knew him, my classmate! He's a nice chap though! He taught me to love myself (:

#08 Tell me something about 7.
A SEX MANIAC!!

#09 Do you know any of 12's family?
MY baby sisiter!! Hmm, no, I don't know anyone.. I only know he has a Mummy, a Daddy and a little sister! [:

#10 What's 8's favourite?
No idea.. Prehaps studying? Hahaha!

#11 What would you do is 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
KENNY?! Urm... That will never happen really. [:

#12 What language does 15 speak?
Pure ENGRISH! Hahaha.

#13 Who is 9 goin out with?
Shikin is going out with us? Hahahas, and her friends of course.

#14 How old is 16 now?
Nurul's 17! [:

#15 When was the last time you talked to 13?
I think was last class gathering during march. We seldom chat online already too..

#16 What's number 2's favourite band/singer?
JACK JOHNSON! Correct anot? Hahaha!

#17 Would you ever date 4?
Hahahaha! No problem luh! x: Can what, she's me Jie after all! ^^

#18 Would you ever date 7?
RARRR!! I think it shouldn't be a problem.. I think Guys date girls better right?

#19 Is 15 single?
Ehhh, YEA~~

#20 What's 10's last name?
It's Hsian. Leng Lee Hsian! xP

#21 Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
HAHAHAHAAH! I THINK.. NOT!!! He's my super caring friend luh! :p

#22 What school does 3 go to?
Holy Innocents' High School luh! :p

#23 Where does 6 live?
Lol.. I forgot.. I only know it's near Fajar Secondary! :p

#24 What's your favourite thing about 5?
She's my sweetest jie!! I known her for like.. uhh.. 4-5 years already! SHE'S SWEET LUH! That's what I like! hahaha.

#25 Have you seen 1 naked?
LOL! NO.. Only in a swimming costume. LOL!

Here's the lucky 5 who have been tag by yours truly!!Good Luck.(:
1. KELLY! HAHA!
2. My girlfriend, SIJIN!
3. Shimin!!!!!!! oops.
4. Yining babe! Don't know how long will she come visit my web again! LOL.
5. URMURMURM............. Don't know lei.. This person lucky luh.. 'Cause I'm not picking anyone..

ramblings....

Going to school and coming back is such a fucking chore. !@$#@%$%^$!@#!%$^!@#!@##@%#@%@$@%^(&( RAR. I was just lucky this morning to have comfy seat on bus 27 and got up the Comfort free shuttle bus to TP(provided by the school. Sorry luh! First time taking luh.. :p). But when getting home, I missed 4 buses(no. 15 or 8) and during transfer, I missed 2 bus 27. WTF?!.. Can't even get home in peace man.. The time travelled was almost an hour and a half, more than the usual 40-45minutes. Damn bloody frustrated man. Lucky I'm patient enough to wait. If not.... #@%&%*()#%$!@$~!!! You understand? :p

Tomorrow I'll be starting school at 11AM all the way to 6PM.. 3 subjects if I'm not wrong.. My class is the most 'sway' luh.. Always starting early and ending late. Hmm. Should I join Dragon Boat or Band?! All that stupid Jane's fault luh.. $#%@.. Hahahaha. Just kidding!!! *MUACKS!* Kiss kiss! x: Hmmm, do I look like the kind who rows boats?! HMMMM.. I don't know.. Just join in the fun after 6PM with them tomorrow luh.. Jane, you better don't 'throw' me away.. I'm PARANOID LUH!!! And will get pretty upset if you does that ]: .. I pray to God that tomorrow would be a wonderful day.. [:

I think a lot these few days.. Today I thought of something: 'God is not your wishing well.' HAHA. I find myself wishing more than praying.. AHEM.. Hahaha.. So what now? Pray harder luh!! :p And one more: 'REALLY PREVETIC men OUGHT to die.' RAR. Who likes them!? FUCK!

To sum up my ramblings, I want to tell some idiots and myself something..
When it's not meant to be yours, whatever SHIT you do or no matter how fucking hard you try, it's NEVER ever ever ever fucking EVER going to be yours. AHEM. Sorry arhs, I'm cursing and swearing again. Don't mind. :/

Oh, lastly.. I'm sorry LX! If pathetic sounds offensive?.. Hmm does it?! Other than that.. Don't be so gloomy like today please....... ;) Whatever.. She's not reading anyway! ALRIGHT LOVE LOVE EVERYONE! NIGHTS!

where did it go?

For a moment, I placed down my comb. At the next, I couldn't remember where it is now. It's gone! I've misplaced it.. for like what? 5 seconds to just switch on the air-conditioner?

Sigh..

My memory is failing so badly. I'm still searching for my missing comb and I still can't find it. I've looked everywhere, my bed, the floor, above the monitor, beside the CPU, my little box full of hair bands and accessories, and even my head! But to no avail.. I'm getting kind of frustrated now.. :/ Stupid fool. I admit, I do have a short-term memory.. I Wonder, how did I ever get through 'O' Levels, remember my friends' names and doing anything &everything with such a poor memory. SHRUGS. Thanks Mummy, I've inherited it from you. Or is it because of the poor environment I'm in. As in mental related, STRESS! Hmmmm, come to think of it, I have had 'STM' for about 2 or 3 years already..

Teenagers these days, their memories rust like nobody cares.. Hahaha. 'LAME'.. Do you suffer from it? And simply get frustrated because you cannot remember??? Ha... Yawningly obvious, I DO!!! Now, that's a not-so-good excuse if you've failed your examinations.. Heee.